Never I was lonely like you
Never I was happier than you
Never I had to wait for someone
As you waited for me, forever
Not that I was sad enough
To think about you,
Neither I had any blind faith
To dream you along
Yet, I had little peace within
Yet, I knew something was missing
Yet, I had none to confess,
As I remained too confident, too proud
And you were there following me
With patience in mind, belief in heart
With love in soul, confidence in time
As you remained too confident, too humble
©NilavroNill 2nd March 2026
Category: 2026
Being Left Alone
The river seems turning inwards
And the light is just fading out
In the meantime, mist is settling down
When her memories take the center stage
After so many years living without her
With so many calendars hanging
Everyday I follow the same rituals
Remembering everything, recalling all
Beyond the open windows, closed doors
Beyond her belongings, unwritten words
Beyond the lost dreams, forgotten oaths
Beyond those little pains, unbearable grief
She vibrates like sound, like rays of hopes
She vibrates like stars, dead long before
She vibrates like gentle breezes all around
She vibrates like my heart, weeping alone
The river seems turning inwards
And the light is just fading out
In the meantime, mist is settling down
Around her grave, around my days…
©NilavroNill 27th February 2026
NilavroNill Shoovro
Stepping Inside
Every time I step in, inside
Inside the regular patterns
Of everyday life, decorated with
Hours minutes, and seconds
I encounter a strange feeling
Neither comfortable nor awkward
Neither pleasant nor horrible, somehow
In between stupidity and madness
Whenever I greet myself, happily
Infront of the self-reflections,
I know, there is something missing
Vital, too authentic, too genuine
I wish I knew the person, beside
Following every step of my shadows
Doing everything, I prefer, yet
Missing all the details, unforeseen
Every time I step in, inside
Inside the sublime destiny
I wish I knew the eternal self
Beyond knowledge beyond wisdom
24th February 2026
NilavroNill Shoovro
Stepping Into The Madness
Never before never again
Walking side by side
With shadows, too personal
- Too irritating, suffocating
Abandoned habits of the past
Unforgettable mannerisms, both
Keep on controlling the steps
Stride after stride without fatigue
Talking relentlessly in private
Watching all the movements
Through the mirrors installed
Within the soul, seldom helps
So, I often tried the other way
Figuring out the night dreams
Before midnights, before late
Before dreaming with eyes closed
It is even better to program
Everything In advance,
In accordance with the fears
Nightmares beyond imaginations
It helps, it provides new horizons
It brings peace, saves the time
It remains pivotal in self defense
Before stepping into the madness!
22nd February 2026
NilavroNill Shoovro
The Epstein File
No more reasons to work on
There is nothing left to defend
To defend us, humanity, humility
Nothing to clinch either for hope
Every smile, confident gestures
The shaking of powerful hands
Promises made behind secret deals
And those breaking news world wide
The narratives, settling heinous plans
False accusations to defend the lies
Media trials and media cover-ups
To hide the crimes, saving the criminals
Bending the laws using the power
Diverting the courts, blackmailing
Staging the revolutions, financing
And concealing the coups d'état
Breeding the statesmen, pedophilic
Kidnapping the children to entertain
Cannibalizing to enjoy the flesh
Keeping the records to track the deeds
Trillions of dollars to cash on
On millions of deaths and orphans
All for only handful of billionaires
Belittling the God, the Almighty…
©NilavroNill 11th February 2026
NilavroNill Shoovro
Unlike None Ever
Fortunately, I never read
Others’ mind, never…
People, who circle around me
I know every detail
Of their mannerisms, and
How they behave
I know the secrets
How they ignore someone
How they recognize other
I know their ambitions
The targets, they run after
The success they try to earn
Fortunately, I never read
Others’ mind, never…
People, who circle around me
I can go along with them
Believing their words and wounds
Like the sea waves, crushing ashore
I can still embrace others
Whole heartedly from
The bottom of my heart
I can even see myself
Into the reflections
Of their eyes, extended smiles
Fortunately, I never read
Others’ mind, never…
People, who circle around me
I’m too vulnerable to
Lose anyone, surrounding me
Anyone I like most…
And my nerves are too feeble
To sustain severe pains,
To much knowledge, naked truths
How can I survive alone
Without looking at the eyes
Of the people, I like most…
Fortunately, I never read
Others’ mind, never…
People, who circle around me
Who cares, what they think
About me, about others
And their true feelings…
The secrets behind their mannerisms
Why they behave in particular ways
Let alone every detail, the inner mosaics
All I know, my faults, the stupidities
My secrets, the hidden self…
I’m not alien either, beyond our times…
©NilavroNill 9th February 2026
